so...about birthdays

Here's what I don't get. Birthdays are suppose to be a fun, happy time, right? A time were you should be happy at the fact you made it another year. A time were you and the people you love can celebrate you turning another year older and become somewhat wiser. Were you learn from the mistakes you made during this year and try to better yourself for the next year. Were you are suppose to be and feel happy.

If that's so, then why do I feel like shit? I just feel horrible. I have since I woke up, and I'm not sick or anything. I just feel...tired.

What the hell is wrong with me? I'm 25 I shouldn't feel like this.

I shouldn't feel like dying.